A Crash It's a ffects

I love this building and I would love  to see the inside.  I probably never will.

It's a bit run down and that makes me sad when I. Looking at it. I think I'm gonna study it. Learn all about it.

That's not what this post is about really though. I have been down now for a good 3 days and it's not just a bit blue. It's harder now to pull myself out of a depression. It's like they said about falling down when you get older. You lay there wounded longer and it hurts a lot more. 

I haven't given up I am just tired and it takes a lot out of me to recover. I'll be alright again just not right now.

Changes

Changes coming and some have already occured. 

Scott is no longer with us on our journey called life. I won't explain. It hurts deeply. His loss is great but I can't stop it and I can't change it so I have to let it go. My heart is broken again as I watch his image fade.

Time to grieve is short as I have to get busy quickly finding us a car to drive and some where to live.

Chuck's court did not go well and he may be a long ways from joining us. But he is right here with us any ways. I never thought I would ever say good bye to Scott but today is that day and I need to accept this and let go.

It's changing me as I write this. Inside I am colder and distant. A piece of me is gone and a hole is all that's left. Good bye friend. I hope you find the life you need and maybe a glimpse of happiness.